STAPH INFECTION

I feel gross and miserable. I have a hole in my leg... filled with pus and blood and bacteria. You wouldn't want to be in my place. It's called MRSA. Here's the Wikipedia link for it. Read up if you like. Feel my pain! It's an abcess on my leg, about a centimeter in diameter, it may have grown larger by now.... The area around it is all pink and getting larger and larger. You don't know how depressing it is to see this thing spreading around my leg. But the worst part was draining it earlier today and removing a large ball of hard pus, revealing a repulsive looking dark hole in my leg. It's small but it still looks nasty. I got the antibiotics Bactrim and Mupirocin, I've been using them for a few days but I still feel that they're not doing anything. Tomorrow I'm going to a nearby hospital and hopefully get this thing taken care of.

This shit is contagious so I can't be around people and I have sanitize my hands and everything I touch. It's such a drag... Halloween night! And I get to stay home.... Blogging. Oh well... Happy Halloween to you! Sad Halloween to me...

IT GETS BETTER

You know, this is a great video in light of the 5 suicides from gay abuse. It truly does get better, it did for me. Even though I was never bullied for being gay, I was the victim of bullying when I was little, and it made my life miserable. Rather than trying to attempt suicide, however, I just shut off my emotions and began to hate the world and humanity. But I remember feeling like the lowest piece of garbage. I hated myself. And that really didn't go away until I started having friends, which wasn't until 8th grade. Really sad. But you know what? I kept going. I pushed myself to overcome my low self-esteem. I think if I had stayed in Argentina.... I may have tried to end my life. But we moved to America and it was a whole new start for me. I know a lot of these kids were in high school. When you're a teen you feel like high school is your life. You never think about what's ahead... that it's gonna end and you won't be seeing 90 percent of the people there again. I think the best thing is to get support from your family, but if they're not there for you (as in my case), then it's important to find people who can help you. I had people who supported me and had my back after coming out. It was tough. But once that which you feared would happen happens... it gets better.

Sure, my family's probably never gonna be fully supportive of me. They may never come to accept certain things about me. I'm not gonna let that get in the way of my happiness. I know there are tough things ahead for me. Being LGBT means life is often going to be difficult, but suicide is a cowardly thing to do. You don't get a second chance at life. You're lucky to be alive, not everyone has that privilege. Tough it out. I know it's gonna be hard, but they're trying to break you. Don't let them do it. Stand tall, know that you're a part of a community, and be proud of who you are.

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