HALLE-FUCKING-LUJAH!

Dearest Friends,

I survived. Yes, last week was Jesus Camp 2011. But instead of the dramatic anecdote I posted last year about that fucking insane God Glitter/Jesus Juice fat bastard, I"ll be brief about this one.

This year's preacher was just as obese, just as annoying, but not as fucking nuts. He was just more of an asshole. This time instead of saying ridiculous things about angel feathers and glory dust, this man just spent three days telling kids how disgusting and pathetic they are, and how they're banned from basically existing according to the Bible. Craziest thing he said: "Hanna Montana is a tool of Satan!" ... Actually, I kind of agree with that one.

But he was nuts. He apparently loves the book of Leviticus, which says everything is an abomination unto God. He's nuts. He calls drinking and tattoos a sin. I know Christians who drink and have tattoos. And Jesus drank, for fuck's sake! His argument: "It could have been grape juice..." FUCK YOU. He turned water into wine.... He actually gave people alcohol. This guy is nuts.

What annoyed me most, however, is how he shamed people. He is a proud, raised-Christian 26 year old virgin, non-drinker, non-anything pretty much. You know what? This dude is just SO DAMN BITTER that he deprives himself of BASIC HUMAN NEEDS.... that he can't stand the fact that others do. Like 'If I'm not gonna have sex, neither will you... HAHAHAHAHAHA!!'

He basically convinced kids that being sexually aroused is wrong, thinking about anything sexual is wrong, if you have CDs or books, or ANYTHING really, that doesn't "glorify God"... you need to set that shit on fire.

Oh, but sex within marriage is great! In fact, it's a form of worship to God... It's a spiritual act!!! Literally. He stated that people can catch curses from sex just like STDs... Wow. I imagine Satan traveling through a guy's dick, being squirted out into your cavity of choice... Pathetic. What the FUCK is this guy smoking. This is ridiculous even for a Christian. And sex as an act of worship?! The LAST thing people think about during sex is praising Jeebus...

So here we are again. Some asshole telling the next generation of kids to be ashamed of their bodies and desires. Making them think that everything in this world is sinful, evil, and will kill them. This dude belongs in the 16th century... Actually, farther back... His morality is archaic, like fucking Bronze Age shit.

Ridiculous. Pisses me off. How people can listen to assholes like this guy.

ALRIGHT...

I guess there's no way to disable this blog... But I don't plan on updating it. Shit ain't happening. But I AM trying to focus more on my creative abilities now. This blog did what it was meant to do. Some of the entries are hilarious, some deeply emotional, and typing my feelings and opinions down was therapeutic for me. That stage of my life is over now. This year I'm not just gonna write about it... I'm making it happen. And by 'it' I mean the things I wanna do, the person I wanna be, and the legacy I want to leave in this world. You ain't seen the last of me, I'll tell you that much! Thank you readers, it's been a long journey. I might make a new blog or continue this one in the distant future. For now, think about this phrase by Gandhi: "Be the change you wish to see in this world."

NEW YEAR, NEW BLOG!

Like the new header? I made it on a Photoshop-like browser application called Sumo Paint. Try it out. I was messing around with it but it ended up looking pretty neat. Also changed the layout a bit. Note that it's a BLOG instead of a BLAWG now... Yup, we've grown up too!

CONGRATS ASSHOLE

So this dude stopped talking to me because I expressed my opinions about religion. As in -- I think it's bullshit.

And this dude told me he was an agnostic.... That he wasn't convinced much by any religion. What the fuck is your problem then?

Things were fine at first. We talked about our experiences helping out at rehab centers. I shared an experience I had visiting an elderly rehab center for people with neurological disorders with my church youth group. We tried sharing the "good news" with a group of elderly men playing poker. Didn't go very well. One of them was immediately pissed that we brought up the issue. "Jesus loves you!" we told him. "Oh yeah? Where was God when I lost my leg in 'nam?? Don't talk to me about no loving God..." And he was right.
Shortly afterwards we decided to sing a few songs to some of the elderly in the main hall.

Anyhow, never did I mention I was a card-carrying atheist, which led this guy to believe I was a Christian. I was very quick to correct him. And... sure...  I might as well give my two cents about religion, right?

He never replied. Did I come off as confrontational? No. And why would he be offended?? I guess he's just embraced that "politically correct" mentality --If it sounds like it would offend other people, I guess I'll just go ahead and act offended-- Why not think for yourself, you tool!!

Pathetic.

2011

New Year. I don't know if I'll keep updating this blog much... But things sure seem uneventful around here. At least I don't have the energy I once had.

Lots of challenges, insecurities, and painful decisions made 2010 a difficult year for me. I do not know what the future holds... but things look dim. However hard things get though, I'll never give up hope. I'll always have the strength and fortitude to live my life with dignity, and I'll always remember those who brought so much joy to my life, those who cared enough to know the real me. I couldn't bear to part from you, but if that be the case, know that you are loved and that I'm incredibly fortunate to be your trusted friend. Maybe things will be different... but uncertainty, like a deep fog, conceals the path before me. No one can help me, thought they wish they could. My weary legs must take me beyond the fog.... where the unknown awaits.

I must do this alone.