For starters I've never had a boyfriend. Or girlfriend for that matter since I didn't come out to myself until I was 17. I guess that's what stopped me from being in a relationship. I've known I liked boys since I was like 7 or 8. But I never really gave it much thought. I kinda wondered why I never did. About a week ago I started playing Final Fantasy III DS again. And then it just clicked. Distractions. It seems to me that people in denial tend to distract themselves from that which they don't have the balls to accept. In my case, I always told everyone that I was focused in school and didn't have time for a relationship, and pretty much just played video games to distract myself. Thinking back it would have been cool having a bf back in high school, but still I am proud of where I am today. I guess I just had a few crushes, but otherwise high school life was pretty dull love-wise.
Okay... here's a story. And this was back in middle school when I was really shy and lonely. There was this guy in my science class back in 8th grade. He was new to the school and he sat across from me. So anyway, I was getting weird vibes from him, not to mention my gaydar was terrible back then. And I suppose he was being a little too friendly with me but I always ignored him. I admit I found him somewhat appealing, hehe. But anyway, it didn't go anywhere. Then one day at the P.E. locker room (lol... it's not what your thinking) I was leaving and walked in front of him and then he told me out of nowhere that he 'still felt a passion for me' or something to that extent. I was just like "Huh?" And walked away. The end. Kinda sad right? I saw him at college last semester, which brought this memory back.
Back when I was 12 I attended this one church somewhere in California for a couple months. So one day a tall older girl told me that her friend had a crush on me. I was like "Damn it...". And sure indeed, she points towards this hideous-looking obese girl. Her friend was like "You should go talk to her!" Haha... no thanks! Long story short, I spent the rest of that night running away from her cuz she was fucking stalking me. Like she was literally running after me.... my younger brother tried to threaten her so she would leave me alone. Luckily she backed off... and no drama after that. I ran into her 3 years later believe it or not, when her church attended some event at my old church. And she immediately recognized me... it sent chills down my spine. So what did I do?! I HID, of course!
That sums up two funny little instances in which someone fancied me but I didn't fancy them back.
who was the guy?
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