THIS IS DEPRESSING

So I just had another one of those depressing "talks" (more like yelling contests) with my dad. We hadn't had one in almost a year. He comes inside my room. This is what ensued...
Father- "Hey I want you to be serious with me right now. Tell me the truth."
Me- "Oh god... not again..."
Father- "Is there anything going on with your friend Andrew?"
Me-  "You stay away from my friends... I'm not gonna discuss shit with you."
Father- Gives me this look.
Me- "Oh god... what? You think he's gay?"
Silence.
"Oh wow... if he is or isn't it's none of your fucking business."

Then he proceeded to utter more bullshit out of his mouth saying "I know you're struggling with ur sexuality" "You were just confused one day and then chose to adopt that way of thinking..." "I know God's gonna heal you someday" and all that BULLSHIT.

I was pissed. I looked him right in the eyes... and just cussed him out. He drove me nuts. "God loves you" he says. Wow.... the nerve. "Well, your God made me gay." He became disgusted when I said that.

I officially hate my father. Three fucking years after I came out to him and still, he hasn't changed at all. Fucking talking to me as if I was mentally ill. Saying I'm struggling with with my sexuality, WTF??!!

We're back to the same place we started. I'm just gonna have to move out. It's like his whole intent was to keep shoving his homophobic religion in my face. He doesn't want to talk. He wants me to convert to his religion, pretend to be straight for the rest of my life, and be miserable. I told him I am done with all of this shit. I'm not gonna put up with any of it. I just hate it. I never chose to be born into a homophobic Evangelical Christian family. I put up with so much shit because of them. And then he has the nerve to call me selfish... cuz I just expect my family to respect who I am.

I'm still in my room.... My brothers probably overheard everything. Ughhh... looks like the shit has hit the fan... I don't know what's gonna happen now. I'm gonna be strong and stand my ground. This is exhausting but it's what I'm gonna have to deal with for now. If anyone can offer me a place to stay for a few days that would be great. They might try to kick me out of the house again.... yeah.... AGAIN.

What's next I wonder? They're probably gonna fire me... Continue their attacks.... I'm so sick of this. Why me. I guess I'm not the only one out there. I'll be fine. I always find a way... somehow. Should I just come out on Facebook? Lol, as if it weren't obvious already...

Wish me luck guys cuz I will need it!

In harmony,

Lakilester